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| I've been really restless lately. I'm not anxious - I'm actually dreading going back to school.
I'm currently listening to Stevie (suprise suprise)
The only part I really hear is "Well I've been afraid of changing because I've built my life around you".
To be completely honest - I'm scared. Scared to death. I don't know what it's going to be like. I remember spending each day just waiting for the weekends and I'm not looking forward to that again. I don't know if I can keep my sanity. It's not a matter of being hopelessly devoted (don't doubt me I am)! I'm not worried about whether or not we'll stay together or make it through the distance - we will. My sense of security will be completely gone. The companion I've known for the past 4 years will be 100 miles away - if something happens I'm stuck. I can't call for help - my security is gone.
*le sigh* I need sleep
Somethin' in you brought out somethin' in me, that I've never been since
That part of me that was only for you,
That kind of romance
Comes only once, that kind of love
That kind of fever dance
That you love because you become someone else in an instant
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| We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
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| As this semester is coming close to an end I'm realizing how much spring semester is going to be different. I'm not sure how I'm going to take it. It SHOULD be my last semester - but I'm dreading it just the same as the others before. Trey will be gone so I'm going to have to fill my days with homework and working in the office. Thank God, Doc hired me. I'll kill two birds with one stone i.e. getting office experience and keeping myself occupied so I don't get depressed. The only thing I can keep telling myself is "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" because there's no such thing as "out of sight out of mind". Not with me anyway. I'm just really scared right now. I've always been one to fear the future - especially since I hate it here. I know it may sound stupid but I'm learning to hold on to the moments. Granted it will only be 4 months and I'll get to see him on the weekends but when you're used to being with someone for 2 years pretty much night and day.... going that long of a time is dreadful. I'm really scared that I"ll slip back into things I used to do - things that I can't think about, things you wouldn't believe, and I don't want to remember.
It's a good thing I have good friends though - Cortney, Wifey, Brandi, and Kella.
bah - this is the most serious thing I've posted in awhile.
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| So this weekend we're heading down to Madison for Josh and Jake's 2nd birthday :) I can't wait to see them. Plus - I need a break from the school atmosphere. I need to be around ppl that don't have classes to go to and homework to do. After this weekend...we have one full week and then it's Thanksgiving break. It couldn't come at a better time. I can't wait to see my grandpa and Dinah - my weasel kitty :)
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| I'm having somewhat of a bad day so I thought I read some old emails and what not and this one in particular made me laugh again. Enjoy
What You Need To Believe To Be A Republican:
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>Jesus loves you, and shares your hatred of homosexuals and Hillary Clinton.
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>Saddam was a good guy when Reagan armed him, a bad guy when Bush's daddy
>made war on him, a good guy when Cheney did business with him,
>and a bad guy when Bush needed a we can't find Bin Laden diversion.
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>Trade with Cuba is wrong because the country is Communist, but trade with
>China and Vietnam is vital to the spirit of international harmony.
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>The United States should get out of the United Nations, and Our highest
>national priority is enforcing UN resolutions against Iraq.
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>A woman can't be trusted with decisions about her own body, but
>multi-national corporations can make decisions affecting all mankind
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>The best way to improve military morale is to praise the troops in
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>If condoms are kept out of schools, adolescents won't have sex.
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>A good way to fight terrorism is to belittle our long-time allies, then
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>Providing health care to all Iraqis is sound policy, but
>providing health care to all Americans is socialism. HMOs and insurance
>companies have the best interests of the public at heart.
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>Global warming and tobacco's link to cancer are junk science, but
>creationism should be taught in schools.
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>A president lying about an extramarital affair is a impeachable offense,
>but a president lying to enlist support for a war in which thousands die is
>solid defense policy.
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>Government should limit itself to the powers named in the Constitution,
>which include banning gay marriages and censoring the Internet.
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>The public has a right to know about Hillary's cattle trades, but George
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>Being a drug addict is a moral failing and a crime, unless you're a
>conservative radio host. Then it's an illness and you need our prayers for
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>What Bill Clinton did in the 1960s is of vital national interest, but what
>Bush did in the '80s is irrelevant. | | |
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